I’m sitting here in my empty dorm room, about to leave Cambridge for the last time and get on a train to London. In the next couple days I’ll be there, then visiting a family friend in Fareham, probably travelling around the countryside a bit, and by Monday night, I’ll be back in the states.

I have no real plan for my life after that point. I’m going to visit Alicia in Minnesota a couple days later, but the planned portion of my life effectively ends in about 72 hours. This is really strange.

A lot of fun times have happened here at Cambridge, and I’ve learned a lot, both here and elsewhere on the trip. I’ve done a lot of exploration, internally and externally. Exploring is good. On a trip like this, you have to explore.

On one hand, when I think about going home I keep thinking how much less there’s going to be to do, and how much more boring it’s going to seem. And maybe it will be. I could probably spend a good chunk of the fall just playing Snood and working as a cashier.

But do I want to do that? I don’t know. Right now, it seems like slowing things down should be the attractive option. I should want to relax for awhile after a two month whirlwind, but I don’t. I want to make a pit stop, say hi to my family, catch up on life for a day or two, then jump right back into the fray and keep exploring somewhere else.

*sighs* Maybe I can explore from home. I mean, not all types of personal exploration take famous places and different cultures. They just take you right? Maybe I can explore those things. Maybe this great big journey doesn’t have to end so suddenly, with so much uncertainty.

I just hope I don’t play too much Snood for that.

Posted on August 20th, 2004 by Lee
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