What have I been up to the last couple of weeks?

Not that you would know better than me. Unfortunately, I have a very good idea what I’ve been up to, and a lot of it hasn’t been fun. But I kind of wonder what my readers think… those that are left after this last month or so of craziness. Because, really, when you have so little to go on, you can kind of fit the pieces together to make up whatever kind of story you want.

And when it comes down to it, that’s the moral of the story of my last couple weeks of hell. Things between Alicia and I went from bad to worse. It was downright nasty, and I can’t say that I’m not to blame for a lot of it. When neither of us knew the full story about what the other was doing, little things that should have meant nothing grew and grew into an ugly green monster that was affecting not only us, but other people as well. There was a lot of anger and a lot of resentment, and until we let it all out, there was no way that things could improve.

Now, I think we’re on the right track. We both have a lot more respect for how our actions affect each other, and I think a better idea of where the other person stands. We have a lot of rebuilding ahead, and a lot of talking things through to do, but I think we’re going to come out of this, if nothing else, on friendly speaking terms. A few days ago, that alone would have seemed a miracle. So I’m counting my blessings.

I never really wanted this to be a blog about my personal life. Of course I’ve always made references here and there, but humorous, insightful posts about being me are more my thing. The problem is, how do you write about things that seem so trivial when your life is consumed by personal drama? It’s not that those aspects of my life stopped when I stopped blogging. They continue, and in an eerie, surreal way, they become really important to maintaining your sanity. But whenever I tried to sit down and write something about the state of my life, it just wouldn’t come out. I couldn’t act as if things were normal when they obviously weren’t. Instead, I said nothing.

So that’s that, and it’s all you’ll be hearing on here. I’m not going to try to describe the entire situation, out of fairness to all parties involved, but also because it’s just way too complicated to try to explain. If you want details, you’ll have to ask me personally.

In the mean time, I hope to get blogging again about more exciting things. Like groceries. *groan*

Posted on November 30th, 2004 by Lee
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